Who Are You Looking For?
I had spent my whole life always needing someone to love and take care
of me. I grew up believing what the world told me about love. You find
someone and love them and they will love you back and you both will live
happily ever after. Wrong! After two failed marriages, I was left to look
at myself and the way I thought about love and relationships. Why couldn’t
I find that right person for me, and why, no matter how hard I tried,
did it always end up hurting me and others? Even before I was married,
I struggled with relationship after relationship. Was I ever going to
find love and keep someone in my life?
I remember blaming God, because I thought I had tried it His way by marrying
a Christian woman I had met through the singles department at church,
but it didn’t work either. I was angry and confused and I didn’t
care anymore, so I started partying and going to night clubs and having
one meaningless relationship after another. After about eight months of
living that way, I was at the lowest point of my life. I was drinking
non stop and had secluded myself both spiritually and physically from
everyone, and I just wanted to die. I was tired of this life of loneliness.
Even in a crowded room I felt alone. Then the Lord spoke to me and asked
me if I was tired of doing things my way? He asked me if I really wanted
someone I could find complete fulfillment in, someone who would love me
and never leave me? Of course I said yes to that question! Then the Lord
told me I had to forsake everything, and everybody, and focus my entire
being on Him. If I would do that, He would show me how to live the abundant
life I truly desired. He said it would be difficult, trying, and down
right nasty sometimes, but if I would focus completely on Him, and nothing
else, He would bring me through it, and I would know what it truly means
to love.
That day I made a CHOICE in my life, that God would be the only one I
would look for, and I would trust Him with my everything. I also made
a commitment to seek the Lord and His ways and I became obedient to that
commitment, by doing whatever the Lord told me to do. I had tried it my
way, other peoples way, and the world’s way, and failed over and
over again, so now it was time to try it the right way.
Mark12:30 Jesus says: Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart,
and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength:
this is the first commandment.
For the next two years of my life, I dedicated every second of every day,
to learning about the Lord and His love. The Lord showed me the truth
about love and the only way I could ever have it. I found out, I never
knew real love in the first place, and the love I was trying to give and
receive was a false love, because the devil had twisted, manipulated,
and distorted the meaning of love, into something shallow and empty. I
found out the only way I could love, was if God was complete in my life,
because God is love, and in Him all things exist. So without God being
complete in my life, I could never give, or receive love.
I John 4:15-19 Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God
dwelleth in him, and he in God. 16 And we have known and believed the
love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth (lives) in
love dwelleth (lives) in God, and God in him. 17 Herein is our love made
perfect (complete), that we may have boldness in the day of judgement:
because as He is, so are we in this world (we are the example of God’s
love). 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect (complete) love casteth
(throws) out fear: because fear has torment (spiritual and physical pain).
He that feareth is not made perfect in love. 19 We love Him, because He
first loved us.
I would of been completely happy if it was just me and the Lord for the
rest of my life. For the first time in my life, I felt complete. I spent
my days loving the Lord and it was showing in the way I looked at others.
Others began to see the love of God in me and were asking me about that
love they saw in me. It opened up opportunity for the Lord to show His
love to them. I was truly beginning to learn how to love others in the
way of Christ.
Mark 12:31 Jesus says: And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt
love thy neighbour as thyself (Christlike). There is none other commandment
(divine rule) greater than these.
After finding true love in the Lord, it happened. One day I was driving
down the road, on my way to work, when the Lord told me He had my wife
ready for me. I started crying and begging the Lord not to do this. I
didn’t want a wife, I just wanted Him. What a switch! Now, instead
of wanting someone else in my life, I was completely satisfied with it
just being the Lord. I argued with the Lord for the next three weeks about
marrying her and those three weeks were the most miserable three weeks
of my life. Even when I was secluding myself away from everyone and drinking
myself to death, I wasn’t this miserable. I finally said yes to
the Lord and who He wanted in my life, but He would have to be the one
who told her, because she would never believe it coming from me. You see,
we had never dated, talked about dating, or even looked at each other
in any way, other than two people who loved and were seeking the Lord
as their only reason for living. But Lord, we are not in love! Yes you
are, said the Lord, you are both in love with me. Alright Lord, but I
want to be sure this is what you want, so you will have to confirm it
through three other people. The Lord even let me pick the three people
He would confirm it through. Within the first week the Lord confirmed
what He wanted through all three people. The only one left to tell was
the one He wanted me to marry and that day came very quickly after the
three confirmations. I was giving her a ride to church, which I had never
done before, and she turned to me and asked me a question. She said, How
old was Adam, when God gave him Eve? As soon as she asked the question,
the Lord very clearly in my head told me, I told her. I looked at her
and said to her, God told you, didn’t He? She said, yes. I said
to her, Adam was forty and Eve was twenty. She said, That’s what
I thought. Of course I don’t know how old Adam was, when God gave
him Eve, but the Lord had me give that answer to her as confirmation to
her that we were supposed to get married, because I am twenty years older
than her. That day we both made a commitment to obey the Lord and get
married and we bought the rings and announced it to everyone. What happened
after that, is another story in itself.
I found the Lord to be my everything in life and was completely satisfied
with Him for the rest of my life, before He would put a help meet in my
life. God wants us all to have a help meet, but it has to be who He wants,
and it has to be the way He wants. Believe me, when you do it His way,
it ALWAYS works out for God, you, and others. I am fulfilled everyday
with the comfort of knowing I am pursuing my purpose and calling in life
with who I am supposed to be with. Did we love each other overnight, no,
but we both were seeking to love the Lord our God with all our heart,
soul, mind, and strength, and that is all you need. With that kind of
love, God can do anything!
Matthew 6:33 Jesus says: But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His
righteousness (justification); and ALL these things shall be added unto
you.
That is not just talking about food, drink, and clothing.
Genesis 2:18-25 And the Lord God said, It is not good that the man should
be alone; I will make him an help meet. 19 And out of the ground the Lord
God formed ever beast of the field, and every fowl of the air; and brought
them unto Adam to see what he would call them: and whatsoever Adam called
every living creature, that was the name thereof. 20 And Adam gave names
to all cattle, and to the fowl of the air, and to every beast of the field;
but for Adam there was not found an help meet (fit) for him. 21 And the
Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and He took
one of his ribs (sides), and closed up the flesh instead thereof; 22 And
the rib, which the Lord God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought
her unto the man. 23 And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones, and
flesh of my flesh (she is my fit): she shall be called Woman, because
she was taken out of man. 24 Therefore shall a man leave his father and
mother, and shall cleave (divide) unto his wife: and they shall be one
flesh. 25 And they were both naked (completely open to each other), the
man and his wife, and were not ashamed.
In these scriptures the Lord shows us, He decided it was not good for
Adam to be alone, not Adam. Adam didn’t ask God for someone in his
life, because he was completely satisfied with God. God doesn’t
want us to be single, but He also doesn’t want us to be married,
if we want someone because we are not satisfied with Him. God created
us to love and for us to love Him back and He will not allow anyone else
to be first in our life.
Exodus 20:3 God says: Thou shalt have no other Gods before me.
Learn to love the Lord your God, as He forms your help meet out of your
side, so He can bring her unto you and you can become one flesh. Remember,
God is preparing her for you, as He prepares you for her. That is the
only way it will work! Who are you looking for?
If you would like to know more about how to find your purpose and calling
in life, while the Lord prepares your help meet for you, you can http://www.christbecomesyou.com.email
me at drbaker777@yahoo.com.
A SON OF GOD